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Monday, September 14, 2009
10:36 PM
Why you have to lie?
I can't bring myself to lie to you.
I feel so sad right now.
If you could feel how it feels like.
Last night i didn't do anything
and put my phone infront of me
hoping that you will message me
after you help out your mum.
I force myself to stay awake
cause you told me not to sleep
When you msg me i feel happy to
read your msg and reply to you.
But today, i got to know that your
not at the place you suppose to be.
The saddest thing is i can't bring myself
to hurt you and lie to you but you did.
Why must this be happening to me when
i'm really serious. You promise me but
you keep on brealing every promise.
I never did break any promise.
I'm seriously sad and disappointed.
Where is the fairness you promise?
I even told people that i trust that
you will not lie to me. If you love
the person you will not do the things that
the person don't like and you will not hurt
that someone. Is it fair that i never did
anything wrong to you but you did.
I'm trying to control the tears now.
My eyes are puffy.
I just want to be alone.=(
~Some people say that I sound strange some say that I'm not right~
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12:01 AM
Had a boring day at home today.
Last night was a bad night when i got home.
All I want to say is please stop bothering my
personal life. I know what's right for me to do.
I'm also mature to think for myself rather than
people have to think for me. Whatever i do you guys
think that i'm being rude and don't know what's right
but indeed i really know.
The whole day stayed at home doing nothing.
It's so boring. Not use to stay at home the whole day.
I woke up at 4 plus today. I know it's like so the piggy.
Well i slept at 8 in the morning.
I didn't manage to meet babygirl today and
i swear i really miss her alot. Tomorrow
she's going out with her friends so i can't be able to
meet her. Missing her badly.
The thing that makes me sad now is because
sometimes i feel that people don't see the effort
in me but they only see the negative part.
What i'm doing is for the own good.
I never teach anything bad. But people
sees it a i'm a control freak. So that why
i said, if you want to do it then go on doing it.
If you can appreciated it then you don't deserve it.
If everything is fair nothing will go wrong.
If promise is kept, i won't be feeling like this.
It's easy to promise but it's hard to keep it
then don't do it. Before this, things never be this way.
But now i see things change. You say you want to meet
me but where's your effort like last time. Now you can
easily say the next day. Do you remember everything you
say to me before? Or if it's just words.
Don't make me stop trying.
I just miss us in the past.=(
It's just words unless the action proves it.
Whatever it is i still love you.
~Some people say that I sound strange some say that I'm not right~
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Wednesday, September 9, 2009
2:08 AM
How could you say i don't love you?
If i don't, my cheeks aren't wet now.
I cared but you still can say that no one cares.
I'm concern about you but in deed you are pissed by me.
I think positive and you can doubt my love.
If only you knew how much you meant to me.
How would you feel if your really sincere and people
don't realise it. It's not that i want an apologise, i seriously
don't need that. I want you to learn that's why i tell you off.
But in the end you think that i'm the bad one.
Where is the fairness here?
~Some people say that I sound strange some say that I'm not right~
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Thursday, September 3, 2009
2:41 AM
Is this feeling for real? Cause i'm not sure about it either.
I'm scared that i will be like the others i went through
but well, it's too early to tell now. Well i think my theory
is showing that it's really true now. To that someone,
thanks for making me feel happy today. You make me
feel what it's like again. But i won't ask for more, i just
don't want the things that have been happening to me
lately happen again.
~Some people say that I sound strange some say that I'm not right~
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